My Thoughts

Welcome Back

Wed, 02 May 2007 00:18:44 GMT

Howdy Everyone...
I dont know what to say....life has been ultimately bumming me out....work sux, i but in at least 10-15 extra hours for those assholes and never get one thnx. Love life? dont get me started, ive been talking to several girls, but to with no avail cuz im still single....i did meet someone today....shes real nice, the bad thing is she is conservative.....hardcore....witch may pose some problems not for me but for her since i tend to lean towards the left on most subjects....though if we can get past that she is very beautiful and very sweet and i would love to give that a chance....

my home life sux.....my mom and i fight every day and always about the same shit....i cant wait till my dad gets a hose so i can go live with him...

Though on a lighter note ive been gettin into better shape and ive started to take createen to help me along...so we'll see how that goes....

peace out guys...only change comes with naked flying....beans and cornbread...stay safe....
Alex

Fathers words

Tue, 01 May 2007 21:06:27 GMT

Fathers Words To His Son
i dream the dream
we never dreamt
and lived the life
we never left
i dreamt for more
now i hope for less
but this life i lead
for no content
i make the leap
to dreams doorstep
the knocking echos
in my bored head
there must be something
more it says
im sleeping less
but im dreaming more
lifes now becoming
a simple chore
but not adventure
not fame, nor fortune
i seek
tis the suttle call
of the sea i heed
but if in this life
i reach it not
dont mourn my soul
at the graveyard
apease my soul
let it be at peace
in the ocean is
where my needs be
so when u may need visit me
now crying, but rejoicing
for ill be happier
than ever in life
but heed my call
make not the mistake i made
dont just dream the dream
we never dreamt
and live the life
i never left
because u owe it to yourself
to live the life we always dreamt

blah

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 00:51:53 GMT

he all.

Im up in huntsville right now. (boring). Anyway... ive been thinking alot lately about anna and i and how i sort of hurt her so bad and then i realized that i dont know if im really over her or not. or it may just be sara a girl who just likes to fuck with my fealings ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Damn

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 21:20:51 GMT

once again ive gone a fairly long time without updating witch is partly not my fault. my mom doesnt like me using lj so i have to be fairly sneaky about doing it witch doesnt bother me to much b/c its not hard to hide to much from her. (not like i would need to hide anything)lol.

anyway life for some reason has been pretty down latly and i cant explain why. most things in my life seem to be going pretty well but i just seem to be down on my spiritual luck lately. i dunno, but i think it has to do with anna, as some of yall already know i broke up with her about a month ago. And its not that i dont care for her, i cared a great deal for and i still do, god do i. Lord knows she put up with all my crap over that period of time. but its just my feelings changed and i didnt think it was fair to her to keep going the way things were going

any way peace out all

only change come with naked flying

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 22:47:33 GMT

You Know You're From Houston When...

You're on your way to work one February morning and suddenly you're trapped in a traffic jam caused by a chuck wagon and fifty horses -- with riders -- and you look around to see that everybody in the cars around you is wearing a cowboy hat.

The "farm-to-market" roads have seven lanes.

If you want to be a snob about your grocery shopping, you can go to a Randall's Flagship, a Kroger Signature, a Rice Epicurean, or soon, an HEB Central Market to buy bread and milk (but you have to dress up!)

You have to turn on the air conditioning in January, two days after a low of 29 degrees.

You have a Roach Story: You opened your flatware drawer to find a roach the size of the Taco Bell chihuahua. He stood up and looked you in the eye. You closed the drawer, bought new flatware -- and stored it in the oven.

When you see your neighbor dancing around the front yard, you don't think he's won the Publisher's Clearinghouse Sweepstakes; you know he just stepped in a fire ant bed.

The name "Bud Adams" makes people snarl, and "Bum Phillips" doesn't mean a bad screwdriver.

"Luv ya Blue" still makes you smile, even if you did run the Oilers out of town.

You know that the Astrodome will always be the Eighth Wonder of the World.

You come to work in short-sleeves and walk out at noon to find that a "blue-tailed norther" has blown through, and the temperature has dropped 40 degrees in a matter of minutes.

Your neighbor's Christmas yard decorations look like a re-creation of the gunfight at the OK Corral, complete with a ten-foot tree decorated with boots and cowboy hats, and a Santa Claus who looks a lot like Wyatt Earp.

You wander into a section of town where you can't read the street signs because they're written in Asian characters instead of English, but you don't care because you can get great prices on fake designer merchandise there.

You go to an art festival on Westheimer and you're almost run down by two cross-dressers on roller blades, holding hands.

The "Killer Bees" are not stinging insects.

You hear everything but English spoken when you go to the Galleria to window-shop.

You know that "Dad gummit" has nothing to do with your father's failure to practice good dental hygiene.

You think "Y'all" is perfectly good usage if you're referring to more than one person.

For a Chili Cookoff, you'll use anything from armadillo to frog's legs, but you know that the only GOOD chili is made with chopped -- not ground -- beef, and it has NO beans and NO tomatoes.

Spring is not the season, Katy is not the lady, and 1960 is not the year.

Society matrons of "a certain age" still sport big hair, and faces that have gone east, west, and north rather than south.

You can leave your house, head out of town, and an hour later you still haven't left the city limits. (During rush hour, you haven't left your neighborhood.)

You've never seen I-45 in any condition other than under-construction -- and you've lived here for 20-30 years.

If the humidity is below 90 percent, it's a good hair day.

You know that "Clutch City" has nothing to do with automobile transmissions.

"The Dream" is not a fantasy.

The only real Mexican food is Tex-Mex.

A 747 with the Space Shuttle riding piggyback has actually flown low, right overhead, and nobody paid any attention to it.

You know that while saving you money, "Mattress Mac" has amassed more than the U.S. Treasury has.

You're happy to have beaten Los Angeles out of a football team, but you'd rather that they keep the title of "Smog Capital."

You see nothing unusual about an 80-something former sheriff's deputy who wears a white pompadour toupee and blue sunglasses, mispronounces names, allows televising of his frequent plastic surgeries, seems unnaturally obsessed with slime in the ice machine, and screams, "MAR-VIN ZIND-ler, EYE-witness news" into a television camera every night.

"Luv Ya Blue" still makes you smile, even if you did run the Oilers out of town.

You wander into a section of town where you can't read the street signs because they're written in Korean instead of English, but you don't care because you can get great prices on fake designer merchandise and great food.

You think y'all is a perfectly good word when you're referring to more than one person.

You see nothing unusual about an eighty-something former sheriff's deputy who wears a white pompadour toupee and blue sun-glasses, mispronounces names, allows televising of his frequent plastic surgeries, seems unnaturally obsessed with slime in the ice machine, and screams "MAR-VIN ZIND-ler, iiiiiiii-witness news" into a television.

You see your neighbor dancing around the front yard, and you don't think he's won the Publisher's Clearing House Sweepstakes; you know that he just stepped in a fire ant bed.

You're on your way to work one FEBRUARY morning and suddenly you're trapped in a traffic jam caused by a chuck wagon and fifty horses with riders and you look around to see that everybody in the cars around you is wearing a cowboy hat.

You have to turn on the air conditioning in January, two days after a low of 29 degrees.

The name "Bud Adams" makes people snarl, and "Bum Phillips" doesn't mean a bad screwdriver.

You come to work in short sleeves and walk out at noon to find that a "blue-tailed norther" has blown through and the temperature has dropped 40 degrees in a matter of minutes.

You go to an art festival on Westheimer and you're almost run down by two hand- holding cross dressers on roller blades.

For a Chili Cookoff, you'll use anything from armadillo to frog's legs, but you know that the only GOOD chili is made with chopped (not ground)- beef, and it has NO beans and NO tomatoes.

You know that Spring is not the season, Katy is not the lady, and 1960 is not the year.

You know that Society matrons of "a certain age" still sport big hair and faces that have gone east, west, and north rather than south.

You can leave your house, head out of town, and an hour later you still haven't left the city limits (during rush hour, you haven't left your NEIGHBORHOOD).

You've never seen I-45 in any condition other than under construction, and you've lived here for 20-30 years.

You think that the humidity being below 90 percent makes it a GOOD hair day.

You know that "Clutch City" has nothing to do with automobile transmissions.

The Dream" is not a fantasy.

The only REAL Mexican food is Tex-Mex.

You've seen a 747 with a Space Shuttle riding piggyback flying low right overhead, and nobody paid any attention to it.

You know that while saving you money, "Mattress Mac" has amassed more than the U.S. treasury.

You're happy to have beaten Los Angeles out of a football team, but you'd rather they keep the title of "Smog Capital."

You know that the Astrodome will always be the 8th wonder of the world.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Houston.

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Poor Anna

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 22:23:18 GMT

Anna is having such a bad day and i feel like there is nothing i cant do to help her. She is the light of my life and i cant do anything to help. Then she goes and says im to good for her and that is absolutly not true
-I love you Sweetie-
"always look on the brite side of life"
-montypython-

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 22:51:52 GMT

I've met someone who truly completes me. Even though my family life seems to be getting worse. It seems like my life as a whole is getting dramatically better because of her. I havent seen my dad in over a month and a half, im constantly fighting with my mom, but i dont care becuase of her. The only thing someone could truly do to hurt me is to take her away from me.

Feelings i have inside
words cannot describe
id do anything for you
to make our love see through

if you were to leave me,
i dont know what id do
your everything to me
i belong to you
as i hope you belong to me

you look down upon yourself
when you really shouldnt
your beutiful in every aspect
i feel like im two feet tall
when i stand in your presence

i dont know how i ever functioned
without you by my side
you are the greatest thing
to have ever came into my life
I love you Anna
I always do
and I always will.

"They say that only love is fair"
-Heuy Lewis-
"Only change comes with naked flying"
-Alex Crago-

another good one from the thriller everyone

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 01:12:53 GMT

You Are a New School Democrat

You like partying and politics - and are likely to be young and affluent.

You're less religious, traditional, and uptight than most Democrats.

Smoking pot, homosexuality, and gambling are all okay in your book.

You prefer that the government help people take care of themselves.

What political persuasion are you?

ANNA

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 00:41:22 GMT

where to start...
sorry i havent updated in a while no time but any i cant say anything but...
(im so happy that i cant stop crying, im so happy that i laughed away my tears). that one goes out to u ANNA

ill sing it one last time for you
then we really have to go
youve been the only thing thats right
in all ive done

and i can barely look at you
but every single time i do
i know we'll make it anywhere
away from here

to think i might not see those eyes
makes it so hard not to cry
and as we say our l o n g goodbyes
i nearly do

heart alex :-)

this made me cry

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 05:23:39 GMT

sorry everyone i havent updated lately
anyway i think life is actually starting to get a lot better even though my mom cant stop bitching at me for doing absolutley nothing
well peace out all

Only change comes with naked flying

drunk dog

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 03:52:14 GMT

ok everyone story time
a long time ago when my dad and a few of his friends where drinking they gave our dog some beer and now hes in love with it. well tonight we gave him some more and no hes drunk hes falling and stumbling all over the place. he just jumped into a wall
thats all all i have tonight bye

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 18:21:52 GMT

Yeah i know i havent updated in a while my mom has been monitoring my computer usage so its becoming harder and harder to find the time to update. But lately ive been really edgy i cant seem to get my act together in my school work and in life in general its really starting to piss me off. And the more i try and do something about it the more i get depressed i just give up on doing something about it ah well theres the bell got to go

what the fuck

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 00:46:49 GMT

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relaxed

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 00:39:20 GMT

wow i havent felt this relaxed in a while. Even though my dad didnt pick me up i still got to go with my grandfather this weekend and man talk about relaxing its so quiet at his house its unbelievable. Anyway today i went and saw friday night lights. its an ok movie even though they fucking lose at the end. thats bull shit. fucking true stories. Any holloween tomorrow and im doing absolutley nothing. thank god peace out

Remember could grass think. And ONLY CHANGE COMES WITH NAKED FLYING

-ALEX CRAGO-

FINALLY

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 17:27:34 GMT

finally im going to my dads house. i havent been there for like a month and its all because hes to lazy to get his butt up and start working for adp agian. This whole shirade is really starting to get to me. I look forward to going to his house every other weekend. My dad has really let me down lately. he knows how much i look forward to going to his house. And he knows i need the break from my mom. I dont understand whats with him lately. Its like every once in a while he just kind of gives up and stops trying. And when he does this it really concerns me because it always appears that he wont be able to get himself going again but he always manages to somehow.
Peace out. ONLY CHANGE COMES WITH NAKED FLYING.
-ALEX CRAGO-

South Park Tonight

Wed, 27 Oct 2004 21:56:57 GMT

Wow! today was just normal. I havent had a normal day in a long time and it feels really good. Even though I had two tests today i dont even think that could bring me down. the best thing about today is the fact that southpark stars its new episoides tonight and that is really fucking awesome. Anyway Have fun all of u people.

Sundays are boring

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 02:50:32 GMT

Oh man what a day my mom starts out being really nice to me then she turns around snd becomes a real biatch i dont get people sometimes. Anyway i had a spanish that i had to do but i left the stuff at school so now im fucked. any see all u people later

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 05:37:37 GMT

All Right now that im feeling better i think ill write a poem

i sit in the shadows
naked all over
i sit crying
looking for refuge
refuge that wont come
my soul is weeping
weeping and longing
longing for love
longing for attachment
attachment to something
anything to love
soon ill be dead
soon my acheing heart will beat no more

then out of nowwhere
the nowhere in the shadows
i see you
ur soft pale face
ur crimson lips
i can hear ur heart
ur caring heart
beating way down in ur bossom
from ur womb comes hope
a hope for all man kind

my heart begins to race
i start to feel scared
that maybe my life is worth living
maybe i have something to live for
now i wish it werent over
that i could see ur face forever
that i could feel ur lips on mine
and i relize
I WANT TO LIVE
LIFE IS WORTH LIVING
LIVING EVERY MINUTE EVERYDAY
WITH NO REGRET
I LOVE LIFE
I LOVE YOU
FOREVER

-ALEX CRAGO-

I hate ignorant people

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 05:11:41 GMT

Well today sucked. Hmm, thats Weird, because every other day of my life sucks also. I dont get it how can one person be so ignorant to everthing around them. I wont name any names because that would just be mean. But jesus im so mad im going to make a list of what i hate the most in life

1) Ren Nelson

2) Ignorance

3) kingwood TX

4) St Louis Cardinalls

5) Steve Nelson (Ren's Dad (fucking Conservatives))

6) George Bush

7) Geoge HW Bush

8) People who try to talk about polotics but dont really know what their talking about

9) Allerges

10) EPILEPSY!!!!

Oh by the way if you havent caught on by now im an epileptic liberal who hates the prisedent and loves the astros and also hates stupid conservatives who are ignorant.
And for those of you who dont know lj user milkcan is my father. He really needs to gets his shit together and either get his fucking company going or look for jobs more. I really love my dad and all but he is always complaining about his fucking brand new company and how its not working. he needs to shut up and just get the job done. And then he complains how ADP wont give him any jobs because he pissed them off,
its like GET UR ARSS UP AND GET A GODDAMN JOB. i know ur trying but stop complaining and try harder

thanks for listening everyone i feel better now!
-ALEX CRAGO-

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 05:41:12 GMT

Hey evryone im sorry i dont write that often but i do it when i can. I think im going to try to write way more often now since i relize alot of my friends do it.
Anyway i just got back from waching team america and it was fucking hillarious, i havent laughed so hard in along time. Seanthethriller is right about the movie if u need cheering up about anything go see that movie because its the one to see.
I think ill go to bed now because im tired good night
-alex crago-

on my mind

Sun, 16 May 2004 03:56:52 GMT

often from time to time i feel i need to relieve my self threw writting, it helps me lay out all of my thoughts and ponder them threw a different perspective.when life gets hard and i am unable to solve the simple mathmatic like eguations that my problems are like. i have to put my problems down on paper and work them out in a more procise manner. some of theese problems elude me even after i have put them down on paper. For example: why my mom cheated on my dad, this problem has always been a big one in my life. Mainly, most of the time it brings my mind to a state of confussion, sitting, silent, wondering why. But every once in a while i feel anger towards my mom who claims to be a christian women, but went off with another man, leaving my dad crying, broken down, wondering what he he did wrong for this to happen. It are problems like this and many more that make me wish sometimes i were dead. But then i remember all the stuff my dad went threw and it helps me keep going.

-meatwad-

Sat, 15 May 2004 21:50:05 GMT

first of all im back!!!!!!
second im gonna stay
anyway i have been thinking about life alot latley and ie relized that when people say you cant let the little stuff bring u down u need to tell them to fuck of because its impossible. besides if u cant freak out about the little stuff then there isnt much to freak out abot. anyway 2 weeks till summer bithes yeah!!!!!! though i have to get a job i think the summer is going to be pretty cool. i have a girlfriend now though i think it might end soon im still trying to patch things up but im feeling preety depressed about the whole thing any peace out and im back!!!!!!!!

Sat, 22 Feb 2003 17:44:24 GMT

montypython!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im bored

Sun, 16 Feb 2003 02:31:00 GMT

Valentines suked i had to help my step dad put up this stupid pole to the gate that we,re going to put in which i think he should have hired somebody to put it in because we were up until about 12 am because we had a hard time making it strait

first entry

Sun, 26 Jan 2003 02:00:45 GMT

sup everyone this is my first entry ever but i want to here from any WWII comp game players
but I think the superbowl is really overrated even though im a guy and im suppossed to like it in all but i thank it really sucks . but if you ask me who i thank should win it should be tampa bay